Welcoming Myself Back to the Blogging World...

It's been way too long since my last post! In my last post, I talked about the fact that I ovulated and that we were waiting to see if I was pregnant. I feel like most of you already know this, but I did not become pregnant from the most recent cycle. I was really upset about it at first, but I feel like that was more of anxiety than actually being upset that it didn't work. I had been waiting and waiting, and they didn't call me until the very end of the day. I cried and cried for about 20 minutes, and then I was pretty much okay. I had some Chinese food and a diet Coke, and I felt much better. :) I have to keep reminding myself that what happens is all part of God's plan for us. This was just not the time. When it is time, it will happen!

I was supposed to start a new cycle on Saturday, but after an ultrasound on Saturday, the PA, Katie, said that the cycle was a no-go. I have two very large cysts in my right ovary and another pretty big one on my left. Katie said that we will wait three to four weeks before beginning the next cycle to give the cysts time to go away on their own. When I start the next cycle, I will be doing injections for at least a week but probably closer to two weeks. I asked Katie if there is any way to know the reason I didn't end up pregnant last month, and she said that it could be a number of things. After she saw the cysts, she said that they could have had something to do with it. Their growth would have been fueled by the combination of pills and injectable medication. It's nothing life-threatening or anything like that...they will just go away. I have another ultrasound at the end of the week for them to check the cysts again to make sure they're going down. We will go from there to determine when I will start my injectables again.

I am maintaining a positive attitude about the whole thing. Katie commented several times about how she loved my positivity, and I told her that it would not help things to be negative, so why be that way? I guess they come across a lot of people that get rude with them or just take out their anger on them when things don't go the way they want them to. It's understandable because the whole process takes a toll on your emotions. It was exciting when I started, then I became stressed and worried when my follicles weren't growing like they should have been. Then it was exciting when I knew I was supposed to be ovulating, and then a little stressful when the doctor wasn't sure if I ovulated. Then it was exciting to find out I ovulated, and then stressful to wait another whole week to find out whether or not I was pregnant. I'll be real--in this week, I was looking for every possible pregnancy sign, when really, pregnancy signs don't usually show up until at least about two weeks after conception, and many pregnancy symptoms are symptoms of starting your period. I already described what happened when I found out I wasn't preggo. Anyway, I can definitely see how the people at the NHC deal with all kinds of emotions. This should be all the fertility talk until Friday.....